i got that slumdog mindset, stay grindin
i left it behind, all the ways i coulda paid my rent
the stage i set, the life i left in the bed i rest
define whats best for the rest of the time i spent
insterested in crime, thats the life i led
shoulda been locked up
now i got bars, my pen is my doctor
shouldnt let the doctor in, now im doctorin
countin all of them meds, that i dropped again
cant help but pretend that im fine
lie to myself, when im thinkin of lines
endorphins are morphin the room, im sorta confused
whats all of this substance abuse, what happened to you
started facin the truth, addicted to hidin the wounds
so id hide in my room, after nights on the booze and i lose it
fightin a battle im losin, dreamin of change
my demons would scream in my face for the high that id chase
and id chase them, the mirrors the hardest to face when
youve taken the person you swore that youd never be
let it be all that you are, wheres nathan...
all the mistakes, all of the faults
all of the reasons id lie to my folks
all of the time that i wasted on you
when i chased all the truths and i led em askew
breakin the habit it happened again
casually thinkin of ways it could end
then it clicked, kid you gotta split quick
next day on the first train, big city slick
gotta stick to your guns, dont quit you gotta run
with it, be done with it, time flies when your havin fun

real talk, all it took was some patience
food for the soul, gettin life related

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im tryna paint a picture, of what its like when you swallow the elixir
thought it woulda fixed the, voice that was tellin me balance out the mixtures talk about the sickness
small fish in a big pond, proved wrong all the people that i pissed off
now im bigger than i ever was, ever more, ready for war, let get it ticked off
shoulda listened to my mum, all she did was show love
theres only so much you can do.. before you grow up